Help meee !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! XOXO?

ok well im african american and i watch alot of tv and i see girls with beautiful skin i have a few pimples and i want them gone. boys like me in school in all but i just dont have confidence in myself though. sometimes i feel as if im ugly and i smell and i just kind of get sad. i dont want to fell this way but thats ust how it seems to come out for me. i have ezema and i have skin problems like dry spots and stuff and they turn black i put coco er stick on it but it wont really work i mean it does but not as well and fast as i want it too. and about the smelling thing, what can i do to smell myself like24/7 so i can know if i smell good or bad ? please helpp and be nice !!!